My gramma died last night. Her 76th birthday would have been tomorrow and her 60th wedding anniversary would be next month. My mom and papa are torn up. It was so weird. We'd been at their house just an hour before.

Funeral stuff to do today so we can have it held on Friday.

Don't know what I feel. It's strange as hell.

Tags: gramma

I need to start giving my journals titles so that, you know, I could put a link list on the side of my journal. Fuck... I need to fucking do something with this retarded layout. I think I've used it for all of my comms plus my writing journal. Bri loses.

Tagged semi-sorta by weirdbagel (& why is her name two words that I always misspell???)
Rules of the game:
- list your top five favorite musical artists.
- list your top five favorite songs from each artist.
- tag five people to do the same.
I tag everyone who wants to give it a go.
( listed top 5 )

Indeed, I'm stuck in the middle of 1996, Hip-Hop, and my love of Jordan Catalano.

I'm better with my food. I'm under my safe limit today and over the past few days, I've dropped almost 3#. Not half bad.

I gotta go watch the new ep of Doctor Who. DOCTOR WHO is so much awesome and love. David Tennant is <3.

You know... I was just thinking... Canada comes out with new money designs every few years and their money's all pretty and colorful and cool. It also seems of a different size than the states and all. But can you imagine a wad of that rolled up with a rubberband? That's some crazy shit.

My gramma's in the hospital and we're trying to get her into a nursing home. Hopefully, the state will be able to pay for it for her. It's pretty fucked up, tho. The doc says she's in good health but because she can't get enough oxygen and has trouble breathing, it's fucking up everything else. If she could get all of her air, she'd be in insane health. BLAH.

I'm fat. UGH. All I want to do is throw up now that I let myself do it the other day. It's like, "PUKE PUKE PUKE!!!" I'm sure I've said it before, but my first ED'ed action was purging and laxative use way back @ 14. I never did the restriction thing for real until I was 18/19 but puking is a close compensatory method. And even tho my mom knows I do it, I don't just put it out there. She'll bitch about how much food costs and all that bullshit. GODDAMMIT... I should just be a good little heifer and not take it in so I don't have to wrestle with such a conundrum.

I should find more memes.

Tags: gramma, meme