Started a little weightloss challenge on DailyBurn to lose 100#. While my initial goal was 100 from when I started at my HW this year, I think I want to start from where I was at my 25th birthday (Monday). That would mean, after all is said and done, I'd be 161.1# lighter than I was 9.23.03 - the day my ED stuff became a demon that I couldn't fight anymore; a day my mind fragmented just a little bit more.
Your progress for this challenge:
(blank bar image my lj.app decided to fuck off over)
Still 100 lbs. to go. Step it up!
I've kind of gotten into the habit of using DailyBurn. Those blinking bars telling me about my intake of fat and calories and protein and carbs make me -want- to reach my goals. What annoys me the most, however, is that DB decided my goals for me. They don't seem right to me for some reason.
Recommended Nutrition Goals:
- between 2185 - 2435 calories.
- between 184 - 277 grams carbs.
- between 141 - 242 grams protein.
- between 44 - 77 grams fat.
Fat I've conquered. Carbs I'm conquerring. Their calorie intake seems way too high. I've been trying to stay under 1800 while getting at least 1200. Protein is a BITCH. Maybe it's because I'm not a big carnivore. I had ~58g yesterday. That's GREAT for me. I normally font even get that much. I'd rather do 50g fat, 60g protein, and the rest in carbs (abt 278). Meh. I don't like not reaching my goals.
I'm trying to 'recover' from all of my years dealing with binging, purging, laxitive abuse, heavy restricting, fasting, and self-hatred. I've been able to kick drugs for exactly 9mo today. I've all but kept myself from any serious self-mutilation. I want my body to be right too. 11 years+ is not my idea of fun.
So yeah... For a bit over a week I could pass a good bowel movement. I swelled up. I felt horrible. I gained 5# of SHIT. Finally, today, I could go. I feel so relieved.
I know I have shit to say but this gets tedious on my phone. Eep.
xxx
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